I have been in somewhat of a bad sort. I started this blog to try and keep myself motivated and it has not been working, especially the last week or so. I have not succeeded in being august in August. I have not overcome the negative habits that I wanted to. I continue to feel beaten up. I feel like everything is too late. I have a tsunami of negative thoughts, so I will not bore you with them. It feels so low to be in this space. I also realize that I am the chief attacker on myself, beating myself up, but for sure, the silence of my family does not help.