Tired of being fat, depressed and cravings even when I am still full!
So, I thought to eat real food to beat fat and depression
I am probably your typical mid aged guy who is fat, lethargic and bummed out to a great extent. Do I even have the energy to attempt to do anything productive. I feel so exhausted, all of the time. Yesterday I had one of my typical days where I constantly struggle to try and lose my belly which is so demanding for constant feedings of snicker bars. Start the morning off with bagel and eggs and orange juice. Have a blueberry muffin for snack. Now at this point, basically I am full, but I still want to eat? How is that? Even if my stomach is distended, I am still craving food, so yesterday I got some pizza. I convinced myself that it is only one slice.
You think it stopped with one slice? surprise! yes, for maybe 15 minutes, but I went back to the store and got another slice, a mushroom slice with another root beer. I can tell you that I was flying high from all of that sugar. Yes, I love pizza, but yesterday, my weight was 250lb, my bmi, the body mass index was way over 30 which means way obese! my body fat was close to 29% and my stomach was as pumped up as if i was pregnant, it just is not working!
I have struggled my whole adult life with being husky, overweight. Grew up on frozen food, processed food, have tried being a vegetarian, a vegan, a carnivore, fruit only, macrobiotics, round and round, weight watchers, no fat, low fat, high fat. The first ‘meal’ if you can call it that was a weight watcher pizza, which was an english muffin with american cheese, ketchup and oregano, I loved it…but here I am..burnt out, yesterday I could barely breathe walking up the hill to my apt. Barely breathe walking up a hill. Who does that to himself or herself? Could it be that I am just hypnotized by all of the glitzy commercials showing cute little M&M’s running around and smiling, and if it is on TV, if it is being advertised, it must be good for me? A food manufacturer, a prestigious company that invents all types of processed foods would never spend millions of dollars convincing me to buy their brand if it is not good for me, right?
So, need to shake things up. I am calling this path Hashi Mashi, one day I will get around to telling you all why, but in the meantime, essentially it means to keep it real in terms of food. That is not too complicated. Yesterday I decided that beginning today, Thursday, June 21, 2012, I will go for real food, real fruit, real vegetables and real proteins, and lets see what happens in 90 days or so.
So by default, Hashi Mashi aka HM excludes most if not all processed foods, all processed grains, bread, pasta, rice, crackers, sodas, candy, reesee’s peanut butter cups, boo hoo, oreos even worse cause I am addicted to those like a crack addict. You get the idea. This is not rocket science.
So today, I began the day with a dish that I named Hashi Mashi. That is Chef Yassine of Cafe Tudor on 41st street and Tudor City Place who has just finished making the Hashi Mashi for me according to my original recipe. He is quite the chef and has been very kind to go along with all my unusual requests, which was basically to prepare an omelette with onions, greens, tomato, pepper and humus and avocado on the side, and to top it off with olives.
I figure if I will have no bread, I need some healthy fat which is what the avocado is for as well as the olives and the olive oil used to sautee the Hashi Mashi. The eggs provide the protein, Chef Yassine almost had a cow when I asked him for grass fed eggs, so I will have to keep trying. And the hummus is just mashed up chick peas, so that will give me some more carb and protein but from a more natural state than bread or pasta.
I had some blueberries for snack, then vegetables and some organic chicken from a health food store on 3rd avenue, I will have to get the name of it for you, Lulu is the Chef over there, she is also very talented and real nice. and for later on , i had a salad with salmon, wild salmon made over at Cibo on 41st and 2nd, quite a good chef there too. Hope I can learn how to make this stuff myself!
And last, I did one lap across the pool today. they call it a length, and 2 lengths is a lap. You have to do 72 of those for a mile! but i like to swim so i will keep going on it…I will post a picture of how I look now one of these days, at the moment it is just too embarassing.
In the meantime, today was the first day, and I will see if I can make it through the day without ben and jerrys, black and white cookies, more pizza, dumplings or pepperidge farm chocolate chip cookies.
I have to give myself a chance.
Is there anyone else out there who has been struggling with weight and/or depression? I cannot be the only one. I will speak more about the depression at a later date, but it is quite detrimental, I know, no kidding. basically it totally sucks, so I am willing to give up my favorite foods like bread to see if it can help me.